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Friday, July 21, 2006

had quite a great day todae. its hua's birthday. she had a great day. her classmates made her eye candy give her the birthday cake they bought her. i wonder if my classmates will ever do that. base on the level of interaction i have with them. oh yea, after her eventful day, she din forget about us. we went crab king in ang mo kio near kerrin's place for crab (obviously) and had fun eating alot again. our motto seems to be -eat till we drop- for every birthday occasion. we bought her a forever friend bear. which appeared to be odd in his/her proportion. oh she named it ah dai. and i seriously suspect that ah dai is mutated. =x it cost me a bomb. i used up all the money tt im supposed to deposit in the bank. :( but well well, im jus so looking forwarrd to wad i will get in three months time. (ahem. hint hint)
i guess i haf been neglecting a lot of things in life. one of the most evident example is my blog. i don haf the comp in my room. and im glad that it doesnt serve as a distraction most of the time cos it will be very inconsiderate and tiring for me to use the comp on weekday nights. cos i will be disturbing my brothers. so i see many people have been missing out the events in my life. to whoever it may concern, im sorry. haha. besides, i had been trying to mug hard to repent for wad i haf not done for my common test two. that is to study as much as possible. and im under high level of stress. not that anione is pressuring me. its just pressure from myself. which is unhealthy. cos to many of us, its consider too earli to be over stressed out. oh well. i just gotta try and relax. and try to hide the symtoms of stress, which is quite undesirable in any case.
i havent been myself recently. its scary to describe what im feeling nowadays. cos i might be attracting unnecessary concerns about me being over paraniod and being a freak. its just that i feel so insecure with my demoralizing results. i noe there are pple who did much worse. but well, im not one of those people who sits here and fret about my bad results(when actually they are realli not bad), so that they can make those who din do well feel worse so as to make myself feel beta. but seriously, my results are realli bad. never gotten such bad grades. but its good. cos it sort of woke me up. for those who had woken up from the slackerish mood, good for you. but those who hasnt, its not too late to do so now. look at the amount we nid to study. besides the four main subjects, i still nid to have substantial readings of newspaper and magazine so that i can write a good gp or econs essays. i dont realli haf a flare for writing which is quite sad. and i had to work doubly hard, cos i know im not the smart kind. i had to work hard to achieve wad i desire. well, its different from the Os. n i know after this period of time, i can take a long break:) im not gonna give up now, cos it will jus be a waste of money and time on my education for the past 11 and a half yrs. yay! im so motivated now, gonna go and mugggg nowww. wheee.

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